Brahmacharya
I'm gay. I want to have sex with other women. This is relatively new to me. I'm in my 30s and I've been in a relationship with the same man for over 10 years. But coming to this understanding of myself has helped some things click into place. Many things, actually seem different now, through this lens of better understanding myself and my sexuality. When I first started reflecting on this, it felt like it couldn't be real because I'm not a teenager, I'm in my 30s and I've been in a loving (albeit sexually difficult) relationship with a man for quite some time and everyone's just so used to thinking of me as straight (including me). This seems both a long time coming and completely sudden. I've been thinking about this idea for several years, not actually being gay, but that I wasn't completely straight (and probably I'm not completely gay either, but that's closer to the truth). I actually even told my partner at the beginning of the